Well the end of the world never happened, but with the way 2012 was going, it felt like it could have been. I for one, had one of the worst years of my life. It was a year of discovery, reflection, and growth. Made a couple of decisions that drastically change the course of my life, whether it was the right one or not, I just trusted my intuition. Here’s what I learned, and it’s not like it’s something that’s mind boggling, it’s something that we all know and talk about, but we don’t necessarily embrace it until we actually go through the life altering experiences.
1) I don’t need to become a famous photographer. I am an achiever, I like to do things to perfection, I don’t settle for good, but I do not need to be like Annie Leibovitz. What does it matter to me whether I’m well known or not, once I die it makes no difference.
2) Love is unpredictable. Love is work. You can’t take love for granted. Love and relationships are the most important things in life. Love makes the world go ’round. Love is some times having enough courage to let go.
3) Self discovery. I came to the ledge and I jumped with faith that I will be okay. I’ve learned to listened to my intuition. 2012 was the most difficult, but I’ve learned more about myself this past year than the entirety of my life.
4) Time can not be rewind, stopped, or borrowed. We all have the same amount of time. Rich or poor. Sick or healthy. What you decide to do with your time is completely up to you, but for me I’ll cultivate my relationships with the ones I truly care about.
5) Money is not evil. What frustrates me more than anything are people who are stuck in the grind, living paycheck to paycheck, making excuses like money isn’t important to them. If money wasn’t important, you wouldn’t be working a 9-5 for the rest of your lives to pay your bills. If money wasn’t important, it wouldn’t run the world. You don’t need money to be happy. But having money does not dampen your happiness. If you want to change your circumstance, you have to change what you’re doing. If you want to be financially independent, find someone who is and follow their lead.
6) Along the way I lost track of what was important to me, which was life experiences, travels, and relationships. I don’t need the latest and greatest of anything. I don’t need designer brands. I don’t need fancy cars. Gone is the beautiful mansion. Now I’m in a studio apartment. I don’t need anything except my camera, my computer, my desk, my phone, my bed, and my CRV. I’m not saying that I won’t want to spoil myself later, because I do like the finer things in life. But for now, I just want to live light, take pictures, and experience life.
So with that, I look back and bid adieu to 2012. You’ve been the hardest year of my life, but I do thank you for making me who I am today. Let’s hope there’s no more pitfalls in 2013 and it’s just upward and onward.
Happy New Year!