Today is my birthday! Like most people, I LOVE my birthday, but not because of all the attention that it brings. For me it’s kinda like a fresh start. I always feel a little wiser on my birthday, not sure if it’s because as I get another year older the dumb brain cells die off or if my brain just releases special chemicals once a year, but the saying is certainly true “with age comes wisdom” or is it “with age comes back problems, grey hair, wrinkles?”
I’m sorry for those who have been following me on here, I have been gone for quite some time. I just needed time. Needed space. I made a quick trip this past week back to Portland to spend some time with friends and then Seattle for my mom’s birthday on Saturday. As I was flying back to Los Angeles late last night, I got a chance to reflect, a chance for me to let go. I’ve always been a sensitive person even at an early age, sensitive to the point that I can feel other people’s energy and emotions around me, almost like emotional ESP. So as I was going through the toughest years of my life, I withdrew from my family, my friends, moved away to a new city, isolated myself with my cat. Everyone has a way of coping, I thought that’s what I needed. But yesterday on the plane, I realized that with my emotional sponge, I should have surrounded myself with friends and family that I can feed off of and take in their love and support to build myself back up. But I was worried that other people might be like me and absorb my sadness, so I left.
I spent the past couple years over analyzing everything, what could have been, should have been, but the conclusion is, what should have been would have been. So it’s time for me to let it all go. Accept the past, it will always be with me, but now I must look forward.
I’m ready to create art again. Inspiration is coming back to me and I’m ready to shoot a bunch of personal projects. I’m looking to build my team here in LA, so if you’re in my field, get in touch with me. Need stylists, locations scouts, hair, makeup, and talent!
Also, I’m ready for more LA friends.
Peace and Love,